I had exams back in June and just stopped blogging - so sorry to my ONE fan haha. However, all this time has given me a new angle to approach life - - For instance, I have been blog surfing (looking through the blogs of a few friends) and I can do better than what I have been doing.
Updates
The modeling advisers got back to me and were interested but I know in all honesty that I'm not ready yet. I don't have good skin right now. Fact. Yes, i am not the contemporary height of your average model - I don't think that matters. Realizations everyday though, so might just realise I'm not meant to model (I'm looking at part time though .. because I have bigger goals). Sooooo back at Uni and have started a new course right now that I feel has brought about new challenges - it's a positive aspect. I am really upset with myself because this is what I should have done right from the beginning, and now I'm going to graduate a year and a half later than I should have. I can't keep thinking about the should have, and the would have though because I have this opportunity and I will get the degree I want to - That's all that matters and not when or how "far behind" I am. More Activity & Executing the Laziness!! Womp Womp - That's what I'm TRYING to do. Just getting things done when they are meant to be because continuously postponing is not going to help (it hasn't in the past). My camera got stolen and I figure it was a blessing in disguise because now I can get a really good camera to develop my interest in Photography. I'm also putting on weight (slowly but surely) and have ordered a new skin care line of products; Clear Essence - So will tell you how that goes! Really trying to just be who I'm meant to be. Get my confidence back !! The 2nd Year Anniversary of my Brother's death was a week ago on Friday - - It was hard and still is but he's blessed ! May he continue to Rest in Peace
Back to Present Time
I've got Braids in right now (Pick and Drop) because I want to get my hair really healthy and then cut it again possibly. At this moment, I'm cleaning out my room in Uni because I feel I retain so much junk - it really irks me. So I'm cleaning out my make up with the help of my friends Ele & Halima via my Blackberry. Now...Silver Eyeshadow? Ele says "LOL No" i.e. Chuck it; Halima says "I'd mix it with Black" .. which is what the dear Jennifer Hudson did at the Grammys. I'm just trying to use my youth to the best of my advantage - thinking of all the styles I might as well try out now whilst I'm still discovering myself. I've put up a few more "Silver Shadow" examples.
A while ago (2 Years +), I bought this nail polish from YSL - Limited Edition - Timeless Shade !! I think it's been discontinued but I love it ! *Random* The reason I'm sharing this with you, is because I just painted my nails (am I the only one who can never paint her nails at home and have them looking like they got done at the nail studio?). *SKIN* ..sigh.. I mentioned my skin condition earlier so I thought I might as well speak about skin. I have had bad skin (spots - scars from the spots because I never listened to my mother and sister and picked them) for a few years now. Looking back, it started in 2001 .. so I've had it for 8 years now and in all honesty it has crippled the way I live. I can't blame anyone apart from myself - but even as a young adult, I still backslide with my skin regime. To hide my skin problem, I use makeup (which I hate quite honestly) - I feel restrained. Can't touch my face because I don't want to rub my makeup off. But flawless skin - no amount of money can buy that ! You truly do just need to take care of your skin. Water is the best and it irks me so much because I only just realised this. I'm a water freak (getting there hehe) now. I also have this terrible habit of not always washing my makeup off at night. I know the confidence boost I'm going to get when my skin clears up in a few months (and this is a vow - watch me !). I've started using the body scrub and the body butter from the Body Shop - so far, so good. I have also promised myself I will start taking Berocca tablets everyday - they're supposed to make you more energetic. So here it is Ladies (and gentlemen - I'm working out my boyfriend's skin regime as well). What goes in your body counts !!
That's all for now =p
K*L
Cocoa Soul
